dreams

yesterday night, i discovered that i was still wearing my ring. today, i found myself mildly bothered by the unfamiliar feeling on my finger, where it had once been.

but every day gets a little better. more and more, i realize that i have been trying to derive happiness out of loving someone, so much so that i forgot how important it was to be loved too. i think what i have to accept is that no matter how nice it was at the beginning, it was still a mistake. yes, i was happy, but that's often how it is with the mistakes we make in life right? we get happy for awhile, and then we realize just how silly we were.

the funny thing is i've always thought of this relationship as a dream. and it really was, wasn't it? thing about most dreams is that waking up is often a slow and painful process, and it really was too. but ultimately, i'm glad i woke up because it's a brand new day and outside, the sun is shining.