green tea

drinking green tea makes me think of so many things... gazing up at the beautiful terraces in china with my family; trying to force down the sushi at sakae (on numerous occasions); buying the box of pokka for char; the delicate teapots that daddy loves; and the old teahouse at neil rd (a lot of memories, that one).

i miss home!

lawrence why you leave your sweater at my place

ugh. now i have to bring extra stuff back.

haha but besides that, thanks for coming! it was great having someone visit, even though previously i was like, wahhh, i just want to slack at home over thanksgiving and not do anything....

but yeah it's really kinda nice to be able to talk to someone about my life, my rship, esp when we have had similar experiences and stuff.

and also glad to be able to offer some comfort to a friend who's gone through quite a bit of trials and tribulations, even though we haven't been very close before. it's nice to see how God brings people in and out of our lives, sometimes for a long while, sometimes for just a blink of an eye... but always with a purpose. hopefully this is the start of a nice friendship though!

does it actually help

when i say those words, do they actually make any difference at all? cos they make all the difference to me when you say them.

even though neither of us can claim that we know how to comfort each other during bad times, somehow i feel better even when you fumble and tell me you just have no idea what to say. cos no matter what i'm going through, the mere thought of you being upset about not being able to comfort me just makes me so scared that i stop being upset immediately.

well, i know that such a thing is just ridiculous to you. maybe it somehow makes you feel better when you think that your bf is such an idiot that he can't even say simple things to comfort you, that you have no choice but to handle things yourself. but i dunno... all i know is that when your heart is broken, mine is too. whoever hurts you hurts me... and i'll gladly let you say hurtful words to me if it transfers some of the hurt away from you. just try not to do it too often ok? cos i'm not as strong as you may think i am.

am i not cool?

i'm on facebook, but i don't do anything on it except add friends when i get friend requests. as a result, i hardly get poked, no one writes on my wall, and i don't even really know how to navigate facebook. i was talking about this facebook phenomenon with yc and lawrence, and i'm starting to wonder if i'm missing out on something... it's like, so many people are so into facebook that the fact that i'm not active in it makes me feel like i am a socially awkward, unconnected loner. but i'm not! i'm actually a nice guy with friends! (i think) but i don't know... now that these websites create another level of connection with people, could my current ambivalence towards it mean that i'm not actively maintaining my friendships with people? i wonder...

i guess i should talk to my friends more. but not on facebook lah.

back in new york city!

just came to nyc for my 3/4 review, and boy do i miss this place! i wonder what i miss though... perhaps it's the creativity of the buskers all over the place, or the bright lights, or maybe just the frenzied energy of this city that makes such a stark contrast with my beloved un-happening ithaca!

can't wait to see yongchuan again too, it's been so long since i last saw him, and sometimes it just seems so sad cos i feel like everytime people relocate or begin new phases in life, friendships inevitably suffer. and it doesn't help that i'm not really a very good maintainer of friendships in the first place!

but even as i regret the diminishing of my existing friendships, it's also so exciting to be making new friends! like my new housemates, like the freshies, like the fcs people... and all this even though i always thought that i wouldn't be able to relate to anyone cos i'm a fifth year student (as if retained like that...like sec 5 student) and everyone is like SO YOUNG compared to me. well... not actually lah. i still feel pretty young, even though it seems like everyday i'm faced with increasingly "real life" situations which demand that i grow up and stop assuming that as long as i'm a student, i don't have to think of anything else besides being a student.

i wanna write more songs! more more more!

i-love-yous

it's so nice to hear you say you love me, without having to say it first. i don't think i've surfaced from that sea of bliss yet... the joy of knowing that someone misses you and is happy when she thinks of you. in a very good way, i feel like i've really found a girlfriend, finally. and i don't ever want to get out of this state! i hope that every time you say you love me, my heart will be filled with this warm fuzzy tingling feeling, even when we're all old and wrinkled.

and i know that we've gotten this far not because of anything that we really accomplished by our own strength. i am thankful every day.

little white balls of fury

it's snowing!!!!

little white flakes of samurai stars zipping down the sky to impale us!

don't go out folks or you'll be hurt! stay indoors at all costs! if possible, sleep it all off! don't worry the nightmare will be over in about 6 months, nothing to get excited about really....

in the meantime, let's all cuddle in our jackets and blankets etc and watch Heroes!

King of Kings

So here's a new song, still pretty raw so i welcome feedback! in Christ i have found a new life, and His love is just so much, so much better than anything this world can offer!

Nothing compares
To the joy that You bring
Your spirit inside me
My heart starts to sing

Jesus Jesus You are my King of kings

No feast on earth can satisfy
The hunger in me
But the bread of life
Is all that i need

Jesus Jesus You are my King of kings

I count all things but loss
Before the One that i found
He is Jesus Christ my Lord most high
My way, my truth, my life

Though riches may tempt me
And beauty deceives
There's nothing more precious
Than Your blood i received

Jesus Jesus You are my King of kings

The devil attacks me
Condemning my sins
But i know that in You
I am whole i am clean

Jesus Jesus You are my King of kings

I count all things but loss
Before the One that i found
He is Jesus Christ my Lord most high
My way, my truth, my life

You are my banner of victory
Lord of glory i give You my praise
You are my saviour deliverer
Jesus Jesus You are my King of kings

labels!

i finally took the trouble to go through all my blogs and label all of my songs! so happy, now i have a "my songs" label, so professional siah!

it's actually quite surprising to see that i have more songs/poems than i had previously imagined... can cut album liao! but i'll probably never get down to doing it. not that my songs are really album worthy, but one day i do hope to record them, especially the worship songs that Jesus has given me recently! such a blessing to be able to write for my saviour.

i also bought an electric tuner! now i don't have to keep on feeling useless when i tune my guitar, cos i'm just SO bad at listening for pitch differences. of course, got it for walmart, so i think it will probably spoil within a week. BUT i'm still happy for now.

new song coming up!

got the chorus (at least the first part), and a tentative melody, but if anyone sees this please help me add lyrics!

i count all things but loss
before the one that i found
he is jesus christ my lord most high
my way, my truth, my life