here's some amateurly photoshopped photos:
Monday, March 31, 2008
tropical rainforest in cornell
so cool, even in the dead of winter, we have a nice little tropical rainforest thriving in the middle of campus! and wow they have the weirdest plants some of them actually look like they can stand up and walk away or talk to you or something. such a wonderful place to lose yourself in.
here's some amateurly photoshopped photos:
here's some amateurly photoshopped photos:
yesterday was the Very Last Time that i snowboarded this semester (and possibly IN MY LIFE) (but hopefully not also)! the slopes were soooo nice! the sun was out and the slopes looked like they were dusted with powdered diamonds :)
i saw this strange pink creature atop the mountains. looks like it didn't evolve fully from the monkeys.
cherrie and ian, so sweet! and joel (who is my new BBF ie. best fren 4evaz) in the background taking a picture of me taking a picture of him taking a picture of me.
i'll miss greek peak and i'll miss the snow and i'll miss snowboarding, and i never thought that after 5 years of enduring the crazy ithacan winters i would say this, but i will miss the frosty winters, even though they chew off my ears and chomp on my fingers and toes and turn my blood into popsicles.
(because.)
i saw this strange pink creature atop the mountains. looks like it didn't evolve fully from the monkeys.
cherrie and ian, so sweet! and joel (who is my new BBF ie. best fren 4evaz) in the background taking a picture of me taking a picture of him taking a picture of me.
i'll miss greek peak and i'll miss the snow and i'll miss snowboarding, and i never thought that after 5 years of enduring the crazy ithacan winters i would say this, but i will miss the frosty winters, even though they chew off my ears and chomp on my fingers and toes and turn my blood into popsicles.
(because.)
Sunday, March 30, 2008
earth day! earth hour!
today, i was a good human. in honor of earth hour, we switched off all the lights from 8 to 9 and had pasta in pitch dark... well, not really pitch lah. we had the VP streetlights, as well as Simian's table lamp which i was paiseh to switch off (haha excuses). it was fortunate, actually, cos the pasta looked like puke but tasted fantastic! and by fantastic i mean it tasted like chilli crab (somehow). not like pasta.
ingredients:
too little/too much thin spaghetti
2 eggs
6 mushrooms
1/2 a head (head? issit head?) of broccoli
7 meatballs
1 tbsp garlic
too little/too much vegetable oil
alfredo sauce
marinara sauce
salsa
paprika
chili powder
sesame seeds
...and maybe other things i dunno.
so pretty right i know.
ingredients:
too little/too much thin spaghetti
2 eggs
6 mushrooms
1/2 a head (head? issit head?) of broccoli
7 meatballs
1 tbsp garlic
too little/too much vegetable oil
alfredo sauce
marinara sauce
salsa
paprika
chili powder
sesame seeds
...and maybe other things i dunno.
so pretty right i know.Friday, March 28, 2008
i wish...
...that you were the one who broke my heart.
...that i could be the one who says, "i wish you all the best with him".
...that you can look past what i have to do.
...that you could hate me.
...that i was braver.
...that i could punish myself.
...that i didn't have to wish.
but most of all, i pray you'll be vee vee happi, somehow.
3/1 - 3/28, 4 wks of happi.
...that i could be the one who says, "i wish you all the best with him".
...that you can look past what i have to do.
...that you could hate me.
...that i was braver.
...that i could punish myself.
...that i didn't have to wish.
but most of all, i pray you'll be vee vee happi, somehow.
3/1 - 3/28, 4 wks of happi.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
do i wish nothing ever happened?
when something good becomes something bad, we often come to a point where we go, "i wish it never happened... life was fine before, why did i have to become very happy only to become even sadder now?" but somehow, i don't find myself asking that question. of course, it could well be that worse is yet to come -- kind of like how you've just capsized in a stormy sea but you're not drowning yet? i don't know.
right now though, it seems as if life can be straightened out, if we all want it to be. but i guess that's the hard part right?
there are so many OBVIOUS things i can do, but of course "obvious" seldom ever equates to "easy"...
right now though, it seems as if life can be straightened out, if we all want it to be. but i guess that's the hard part right?
there are so many OBVIOUS things i can do, but of course "obvious" seldom ever equates to "easy"...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
cold days are our days
... and it's been nice and cold all through the semester! maybe next time, we'll have the warm days too, but for now this is good enough for me.
i just discovered too that everyone makes mistakes, and also, just how easy it is to forgive. it doesn't take a strong person to forgive, just someone who doesn't want to waste his/her life trapped in misery.
i just discovered too that everyone makes mistakes, and also, just how easy it is to forgive. it doesn't take a strong person to forgive, just someone who doesn't want to waste his/her life trapped in misery.
Monday, March 24, 2008
15 pieces of starbucks tissue
tissue paper's supposed to dry tears, not to create them. but sometimes life doesn't work the way we want it, and we're left clinging on futilely to the threads of what could have been. i agree that God will make everything ok, but there's only one way to be happ(i).
i don't know what love is anymore. it means too many things, way too many things.
i'm reluctantly overhearing someone shouting over the phone to his girlfriend, and it scares me to bits and pieces. and it makes me wonder if i'm like that too, during the rare rare occasions when i actually get angry. i don't want! but really, it's amazing what the human voice can do to the heart. "melt"/"piang"/"quiver".
... so everything in my life now is hazy and confused and swirling, but for now, here's whiteface eye candy:
5 min of craziness! could have ended the trip right there.
art. really...
diseased tree
extreme makeover i love my feelers!
pro right? right?
ken leeeee!!! realleeee!!
siberian soldiers going to war. looking very sianz.
happi.
i think we have a lot of talent
no i'm not 25 i'm only 12 really. serious...
i don't know what love is anymore. it means too many things, way too many things.
i'm reluctantly overhearing someone shouting over the phone to his girlfriend, and it scares me to bits and pieces. and it makes me wonder if i'm like that too, during the rare rare occasions when i actually get angry. i don't want! but really, it's amazing what the human voice can do to the heart. "melt"/"piang"/"quiver".
... so everything in my life now is hazy and confused and swirling, but for now, here's whiteface eye candy:
5 min of craziness! could have ended the trip right there.
art. really...
diseased tree
extreme makeover i love my feelers!
pro right? right?
ken leeeee!!! realleeee!!
siberian soldiers going to war. looking very sianz.
happi.
i think we have a lot of talent
no i'm not 25 i'm only 12 really. serious...and that was the most awesomest sp brk trip ever.
p.s. we fall in very different styles.
joel: *thump*. *sits there not moving, looks down at snow and screams silently inside*
evelyn: *thump*. *dazed* *flops over* *plays dead*
joshua: *bounce spin tumble tumble slide* "ahhhh hur hur hur hur that was so funny!"
kenneth: "ahhh --" *thump tumble tumble* "-- ahhhhhhhhh!!" *deep breath* "ahhhhhhhh!!!!"
p.p.s screaming against the wind makes the wind go away and cures all pains and aches and diseases.
p.p.s.s thanks joel joshua and evelyn for being wonderful and crazy and happy, the company was fantastic.
p.s. we fall in very different styles.
joel: *thump*. *sits there not moving, looks down at snow and screams silently inside*
evelyn: *thump*. *dazed* *flops over* *plays dead*
joshua: *bounce spin tumble tumble slide* "ahhhh hur hur hur hur that was so funny!"
kenneth: "ahhh --" *thump tumble tumble* "-- ahhhhhhhhh!!" *deep breath* "ahhhhhhhh!!!!"
p.p.s screaming against the wind makes the wind go away and cures all pains and aches and diseases.
p.p.s.s thanks joel joshua and evelyn for being wonderful and crazy and happy, the company was fantastic.
Friday, March 21, 2008
today was supposed to be FANTASTIC! ...supposed...
so we went happily to the slopes expecting it to be a beautiful day. after all, that was what the websites told us. but when we reached the carpark, we saw a couple who were shaking their heads and looking very disappointed. they walked past us and were like, "everything is closed except the kiddy slopes..."
OMG. shattered. so we went to the bunny slopes and tried our very bestest to have as much fun as possible. and we did! i now know how to snowboard on my goofy side, as well as spinning in both directions! also found a little pink helicopter spinning down the slope which was quite cute.
AND THEN THE SLOPES OPENED. God really answers prayers OK.
and among the awesome things i did were:
1. hurtle down the black slopes
2. bounce on 3 consecutive humps
3. fly off a HUGE hump
4. catch reese's's in my mouth... mostly
5. get assaulted by an almost avalanche
6. watch joel get sucked into a bottomless chasm never to be seen again (for awhile)
7. get chased down the mountain by an army of snow patrol people cos we were the last buggers on the slopes.
in all, life was not too bad.
and tomorrow will be beautiful.
but aiyah... beautiful already :)
OMG. shattered. so we went to the bunny slopes and tried our very bestest to have as much fun as possible. and we did! i now know how to snowboard on my goofy side, as well as spinning in both directions! also found a little pink helicopter spinning down the slope which was quite cute.
AND THEN THE SLOPES OPENED. God really answers prayers OK.
and among the awesome things i did were:
1. hurtle down the black slopes
2. bounce on 3 consecutive humps
3. fly off a HUGE hump
4. catch reese's's in my mouth... mostly
5. get assaulted by an almost avalanche
6. watch joel get sucked into a bottomless chasm never to be seen again (for awhile)
7. get chased down the mountain by an army of snow patrol people cos we were the last buggers on the slopes.
in all, life was not too bad.
and tomorrow will be beautiful.
but aiyah... beautiful already :)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
sleeping in is soooo shiok
i admit i was really not looking forward to today, cos we all knew it was going to rain and that snowboarding would be an impossibility. but turns out that it was such a nice relaxing cosy afternoon, which we spent mostly sleeping and occasionally looking at our awesome photos and videos. and i remembered my dream!
too convoluted to describe here, but part of it involved me and two strangers (i knew them in the dream but not in real life) trying to escape from drug busting policemen in decoy cabs. our strategy was to somehow cut honeydew slices into triangles using rulers and penknives, so that the policemen wouldn't be able to tell the real ones from the fake ones. in the end though, we got stopped by a cab for a "regular" police check, and the guy i was with killed the plainclothes police officer and we sped off.
...honestly, the actual dream was a lot more exciting and made a lot more sense when i was in it...
part of the lazy afternoon also involved a lot of sketchy behavior between us guys, which would have made passersby rather uncomfortable. especially cos we didn't close the curtains and made a lot of noise as well.
revelation: sometimes msn isn't necessary.
tomorrow is snowboarding day again!
too convoluted to describe here, but part of it involved me and two strangers (i knew them in the dream but not in real life) trying to escape from drug busting policemen in decoy cabs. our strategy was to somehow cut honeydew slices into triangles using rulers and penknives, so that the policemen wouldn't be able to tell the real ones from the fake ones. in the end though, we got stopped by a cab for a "regular" police check, and the guy i was with killed the plainclothes police officer and we sped off.
...honestly, the actual dream was a lot more exciting and made a lot more sense when i was in it...
part of the lazy afternoon also involved a lot of sketchy behavior between us guys, which would have made passersby rather uncomfortable. especially cos we didn't close the curtains and made a lot of noise as well.
revelation: sometimes msn isn't necessary.
tomorrow is snowboarding day again!
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
dreams on the second night in Whiteface Mountain
didn't remember mine but this is everyone else's dreams. damn cool. we should do this everyday.
dream 1: i dreamt about my friend... it was very weird... there was a cake and i was eating otah with pandan rice...no there was no cake no no it was very weird ok apparently he is in the church ministry, so weird, and he's running and he's running from people who are persecuting the church OMG what a bizarre dream ok yeah the church or the church pastors or something. and two of the those pandan wraps fell on the ground, someone knocked them over and i was very sad. i was very very sad in the dream. and that friend appeared over my shoulder and wanted some too. yes. and then evelyn woke me up. it was ok.
dream 2: ok we had to move to west campus all of a sudden and they actually brought us there on a bus and raina was with me and there were a few other friends lah. ohhmmmmm and when we got there we made plans to go back to balch to get our stuff together but then raina disappeared and oh yah they only gave us one day to move in cos just like that lor 1 day to move our stuff to balch and so i was thinking to myself i need kenneth to drive me and all my stuff to west campus but cannot how cos kenneth is at his snowboarding trip and then i went to eat at the dining hall... i dunno i never see before and then WOOOOOOUUUUU actually theres a lot more but i can't really remember its like snippets and there were a bunch of friends who weren't from cornell but they were in the dining hall as well with a Lao Shi you know like a teacher who teaches chinese so they were all sitting with the lao shi and i sat down with them for a while to eat with them and then i walked down the corridor and then i saw like 5 students who were all dressed up for a business presentation and OMGosh i suddenly see the relevance! oh my goodness my dream is so weird! it suddenly makes sense yah so they were dressed up in their business wear but then their hair was spiked with gel oh yah there was a lot of PRODUCT in their hair oh my gosh it never occurred to me the relevance of my dream and then i continued down the corridor and saw the nerdiest guy in the world he had those funny glasses and he had the nerd posture and he was walking really really slowly in the nerd posture like a bit slumped and leaning back slightly yah yah yah that's the nerd posture and then i continued and came to an atrium and then i saw joel and then i was like oh you're awake already we should go snowboarding and then there was a blur of things but then he started telling me about Maya and there was this image where you had to pull out a section of it like, extend a section, and he was telling me to use CVs and then i was like oh Control Vertex ah, i know lah very easy. and then i saw the image lah you know the green and purple thing, and then i selected a bundle of vertices and pulled them out... actually i was quite angry lah cos i thot he looked down on me and he thinks i don't know what are control vertices. so it was a bit irritating. and then he started telling me that when i was asleep i was a very bad sleeper because i was jerking around like constantly and i told him i was just having a lot of dreams so i was just jerking around all the way through. and there was about it. and so when i really woke up i was confused why we weren't awake yet.
dream 3: wait no it was such and awesome dream such a funny dream no it was awesome it wasnt funny at all oh man you guys are so weird oh no what was i thinking... ok at least i remember this part... oh no it involves you! oh actually i remember the earlier part also... wah so exciting. ok i start from the later parts. ok uhmmmmmm what was going on ok ok there was some sort of performance that was going to be played and i was supposed to be what was i supposed to be i was in charge of something lah some sound related issue and i think it was some church program and joshua ng was there also he was sitting beside me and after that we were sitting in a circle i think it was fcs and there was you and there was joshua ng and there were two girls i didn't know and there was joseph and there was shucks ok there were some other pple that you all dun know but i know and we were talking kok lah and somebody asked about fruit tart and what it was in german and we were like what's a fruit tart and i said it was something torte which was probably correct and there was this huge debate and joseph had a strange theory about how they changed the name of the fruit tart so it will sound more sophisticated and then it totally didn't make sense to me then so i made a strange expression with my face and some girl opposite me saw and made the same expression and we were amused. and now it was kenneth's turn to share and kenneth being kenneth decides to tell us his dream! gosh i'm so serious. anyway and then there was this strange girl sitting beside you and you said it was your granddaughter and you were telling us something about rockclimbing and some strange thing and i was like OMG why is kenneth telling us his dream what's wrong with this world and then the most interesting part was a lot of the pple in the circle were passing around like um this notebook they were writing stuff in it and i was wondering what was going on and people were reading the stuff and frowning and then they laughed and passed it along and so what the hell was inside maybe they were writing this continuous story and soon the notebook passed to me and there was the strangest thing in the notebook. ok so it was all huge numbers there was multiplication and exponential numbers and every time the book passed along there was a new number that had to be calculated, and a new formula, and so i had to think of a new formula too. and i was like what's this so geeky. oh i think it was cos joshua was complaining about nobody attending his tutorial cos he was some TA or something. no he was asking some people to attend his section or something like that. I THINK IT WAS GRACE. oh yah that's why suddenly the number thing came about ok that's it. that was a strange dream. totally random. my neck hurts.
* my granddaughter's name is supposed to be Kaen, and prophesized by dreamer 3.
dream 1: i dreamt about my friend... it was very weird... there was a cake and i was eating otah with pandan rice...no there was no cake no no it was very weird ok apparently he is in the church ministry, so weird, and he's running and he's running from people who are persecuting the church OMG what a bizarre dream ok yeah the church or the church pastors or something. and two of the those pandan wraps fell on the ground, someone knocked them over and i was very sad. i was very very sad in the dream. and that friend appeared over my shoulder and wanted some too. yes. and then evelyn woke me up. it was ok.
dream 2: ok we had to move to west campus all of a sudden and they actually brought us there on a bus and raina was with me and there were a few other friends lah. ohhmmmmm and when we got there we made plans to go back to balch to get our stuff together but then raina disappeared and oh yah they only gave us one day to move in cos just like that lor 1 day to move our stuff to balch and so i was thinking to myself i need kenneth to drive me and all my stuff to west campus but cannot how cos kenneth is at his snowboarding trip and then i went to eat at the dining hall... i dunno i never see before and then WOOOOOOUUUUU actually theres a lot more but i can't really remember its like snippets and there were a bunch of friends who weren't from cornell but they were in the dining hall as well with a Lao Shi you know like a teacher who teaches chinese so they were all sitting with the lao shi and i sat down with them for a while to eat with them and then i walked down the corridor and then i saw like 5 students who were all dressed up for a business presentation and OMGosh i suddenly see the relevance! oh my goodness my dream is so weird! it suddenly makes sense yah so they were dressed up in their business wear but then their hair was spiked with gel oh yah there was a lot of PRODUCT in their hair oh my gosh it never occurred to me the relevance of my dream and then i continued down the corridor and saw the nerdiest guy in the world he had those funny glasses and he had the nerd posture and he was walking really really slowly in the nerd posture like a bit slumped and leaning back slightly yah yah yah that's the nerd posture and then i continued and came to an atrium and then i saw joel and then i was like oh you're awake already we should go snowboarding and then there was a blur of things but then he started telling me about Maya and there was this image where you had to pull out a section of it like, extend a section, and he was telling me to use CVs and then i was like oh Control Vertex ah, i know lah very easy. and then i saw the image lah you know the green and purple thing, and then i selected a bundle of vertices and pulled them out... actually i was quite angry lah cos i thot he looked down on me and he thinks i don't know what are control vertices. so it was a bit irritating. and then he started telling me that when i was asleep i was a very bad sleeper because i was jerking around like constantly and i told him i was just having a lot of dreams so i was just jerking around all the way through. and there was about it. and so when i really woke up i was confused why we weren't awake yet.
dream 3: wait no it was such and awesome dream such a funny dream no it was awesome it wasnt funny at all oh man you guys are so weird oh no what was i thinking... ok at least i remember this part... oh no it involves you! oh actually i remember the earlier part also... wah so exciting. ok i start from the later parts. ok uhmmmmmm what was going on ok ok there was some sort of performance that was going to be played and i was supposed to be what was i supposed to be i was in charge of something lah some sound related issue and i think it was some church program and joshua ng was there also he was sitting beside me and after that we were sitting in a circle i think it was fcs and there was you and there was joshua ng and there were two girls i didn't know and there was joseph and there was shucks ok there were some other pple that you all dun know but i know and we were talking kok lah and somebody asked about fruit tart and what it was in german and we were like what's a fruit tart and i said it was something torte which was probably correct and there was this huge debate and joseph had a strange theory about how they changed the name of the fruit tart so it will sound more sophisticated and then it totally didn't make sense to me then so i made a strange expression with my face and some girl opposite me saw and made the same expression and we were amused. and now it was kenneth's turn to share and kenneth being kenneth decides to tell us his dream! gosh i'm so serious. anyway and then there was this strange girl sitting beside you and you said it was your granddaughter and you were telling us something about rockclimbing and some strange thing and i was like OMG why is kenneth telling us his dream what's wrong with this world and then the most interesting part was a lot of the pple in the circle were passing around like um this notebook they were writing stuff in it and i was wondering what was going on and people were reading the stuff and frowning and then they laughed and passed it along and so what the hell was inside maybe they were writing this continuous story and soon the notebook passed to me and there was the strangest thing in the notebook. ok so it was all huge numbers there was multiplication and exponential numbers and every time the book passed along there was a new number that had to be calculated, and a new formula, and so i had to think of a new formula too. and i was like what's this so geeky. oh i think it was cos joshua was complaining about nobody attending his tutorial cos he was some TA or something. no he was asking some people to attend his section or something like that. I THINK IT WAS GRACE. oh yah that's why suddenly the number thing came about ok that's it. that was a strange dream. totally random. my neck hurts.
* my granddaughter's name is supposed to be Kaen, and prophesized by dreamer 3.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
dragon day!
so this is my very very last dragon day, before i reluctantly drag myself back to singapore and become a developer's lackey for my entire foreseeable future. and it was so cool! the dragon was fantastic i must say -- compared to previous dragons, it was lighter, more colourful, fiercer looking, and much much more dynamic! the claws move, the head moves, even the spikes on its back move! if only it breathed fire too...
but the real surprise was the engineers' phoenix. true, it was barely a third the size of the dragon, but considering that the previous years have seen pheonixes that looked like chickens/man-sized penguins etc., this was spectacular. still, it was an embarrassing sight -- while the dragon huffed and puffed and shrieked and clawed and bit at the phoenix, it just sat there looking scared and resigned... haha poor thing.
anyway, had an awesome time -- great atmosphere, great company.
pics coming soon!
but the real surprise was the engineers' phoenix. true, it was barely a third the size of the dragon, but considering that the previous years have seen pheonixes that looked like chickens/man-sized penguins etc., this was spectacular. still, it was an embarrassing sight -- while the dragon huffed and puffed and shrieked and clawed and bit at the phoenix, it just sat there looking scared and resigned... haha poor thing.
anyway, had an awesome time -- great atmosphere, great company.
pics coming soon!
Friday, March 14, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
drowning in ricola
i must have downed over 10 ricolas in 1 night. wonder if you can overdose on these guys. would be quite funny.
oh and today, i almost died. a UPS truck drove up near my house just as i was crossing the parking lot. it usually just stops there so i walked across without a second thought, carrying the snowboard i just borrowed from shanon. and then all of a sudden the truck was right beside me and i had to leap away before i got crushed into pulp. to make things infinitely better, simian came up behind me laughing and said, "oh it would have been quite funny if you're knocked down and i came over and went oh lucky the snowboard is ok... if not don't know how to tell shanon..." :)
:(
oh and today, i almost died. a UPS truck drove up near my house just as i was crossing the parking lot. it usually just stops there so i walked across without a second thought, carrying the snowboard i just borrowed from shanon. and then all of a sudden the truck was right beside me and i had to leap away before i got crushed into pulp. to make things infinitely better, simian came up behind me laughing and said, "oh it would have been quite funny if you're knocked down and i came over and went oh lucky the snowboard is ok... if not don't know how to tell shanon..." :)
:(
I wish I had the time (and the energy) to draw
just saw my friend's portfolio... and it really shocked me! partly because it was very good, and partly because it kinda reminded me of how much i loved art in the past. i still love it now, but it always seems like i have too many other things to do to just take the effort. kinda like my christian walk sometimes! heehee.
it's also partly cos i don't have a table. i mean i do have a table, but i can't really see it. it's currently where i throw everything that i don't want to deal with... and considering that i do work on my bed, i have had no reason to clear up my table. i'm kinda glad that char is coming over, cos by then i would have had to clear it up hehe. that's why men need to marry -- so they don't become absolute slobs! (at least guys like me lah)
it's also partly cos i don't have a table. i mean i do have a table, but i can't really see it. it's currently where i throw everything that i don't want to deal with... and considering that i do work on my bed, i have had no reason to clear up my table. i'm kinda glad that char is coming over, cos by then i would have had to clear it up hehe. that's why men need to marry -- so they don't become absolute slobs! (at least guys like me lah)
i feel like a secondary school kid!
honestly, the midterm exam (History of American Landscape Architecture) i took today was way easier than the exams i've taken since i was a little kid, but i haven't touched an exam for so long that it was just nerve-wrecking! but i think i did ok... not fantastic, but not too shabby either. hopefully at the end of this semester i can still get an A and my GPA will stay more or less in the same place....
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
everyone is crying!
ugh my first midterm in about 2 years? please i'm so not a student anymore, why do i have to take exams!? spare me please gosh they should have a waiver for people who are too old for exams.
...how do you say sorry to someone whom you haven't met, who doesn't know you, and who doesn't know what you did?
Sunday, March 09, 2008
the power of belief
nowadays, whenever i fall sick, i immediately tell myself i'm going to be well in a few days, and that this is just a temporary inconvenience. it usually works. knowing this, i can allow myself to continue being happy even though my eyes are bloodshot and mucus is leaking out from my ears and my throat feels like it's slowly being sawed open.
it's kind of like what being alive is...no?
it's kind of like what being alive is...no?
Friday, March 07, 2008
Thursday, March 06, 2008
the song i can't sing with anyone else
Close To You
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the (boys) in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
sometimes life deals us these cards... and we're left years later wondering what really hit us; and clinging on to these memories... like old photos -- yellowed but still full of feeling.
it might be painful sometimes, but please, i don't ever want to forget.
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the (boys) in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
sometimes life deals us these cards... and we're left years later wondering what really hit us; and clinging on to these memories... like old photos -- yellowed but still full of feeling.
it might be painful sometimes, but please, i don't ever want to forget.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
happy = sad.
sad = dunno what to write.
dunno what to write = nothing to type.
nothing to type = no exercise for fingers.
no exercise for fingers = poor circulation.
poor circulation = no oxygen and nutrients.
no oxygen and nutrients = gangrene sets in.
gangrene sets in = fingers rot and fall off.
fingers rot and fall off = infection.
infection = more infection.
more infection = body cannot tahan.
body cannot tahan = die.
thus happy = die.
sad = dunno what to write.
dunno what to write = nothing to type.
nothing to type = no exercise for fingers.
no exercise for fingers = poor circulation.
poor circulation = no oxygen and nutrients.
no oxygen and nutrients = gangrene sets in.
gangrene sets in = fingers rot and fall off.
fingers rot and fall off = infection.
infection = more infection.
more infection = body cannot tahan.
body cannot tahan = die.
thus happy = die.
missing phone and other things in life
we know where it lies, even if i can't tell you. because some things ought to be a certain way and we're powerless to change it -- all we can do is to plaster smiles on our faces and silently bear the ache of being at the right place at the wrong time. and when time finally runs out, at least we know we searched together, and perhaps, have the bruises to show for it.
if you can really see that (rainbow), please tell me how. i can't see that far and for now, really can't bring myself to try.
if you can really see that (rainbow), please tell me how. i can't see that far and for now, really can't bring myself to try.
Praise God!
A+ for Thesis! yay just got my grades, so grateful! After a long, drawn out period of emotional trauma since I first heard news that some members of the architecture department were considering disqualifying us from thesis (allegedly to get back at my thesis advisers for allowing us to do collaborative work), we have finally been vindicated with an awesome grade! God has really brought me from despair and turned the situation around completely, so that not only do I get a good grade, my work is likely to be published by my professor in his firm's monograph, and I do not need to work on a thesis book (which will just collect dust in the library archives) like my peers while still getting the same credit reflected in my official transcript. This is just amazing.
At the same time, I am really disappointed with Cornell School of Architecture's non-progressiveness. To think that the vast majority of today's architectural work arises out of collaboration, and top firms are looking out eagerly for candidates who can work well in teams, why would the top undergraduate architecture program in the US insist on keeping thesis individual? The era of the starchitect is past its prime -- why are we still infatuated with the idea of a single individual changing the direction of architectural practice with a magically conceived thesis project? I guess I'll never know, but I really hope that with the arrival of a new Dean of AAP, our architecture school can at least be a little more forward looking.
At the same time, I am really disappointed with Cornell School of Architecture's non-progressiveness. To think that the vast majority of today's architectural work arises out of collaboration, and top firms are looking out eagerly for candidates who can work well in teams, why would the top undergraduate architecture program in the US insist on keeping thesis individual? The era of the starchitect is past its prime -- why are we still infatuated with the idea of a single individual changing the direction of architectural practice with a magically conceived thesis project? I guess I'll never know, but I really hope that with the arrival of a new Dean of AAP, our architecture school can at least be a little more forward looking.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
please please don't let spring come so fast! no snow = no snowboarding!
today's actually bright and sunny. and warm! and on days like these, the snow melts and pools on the freezing ground to become ice. then the ice melts too, and becomes water, which flows away until it finds those little openings in the ground to seep into -- never to return. snowmen all over struggle to stay alive, and snow dreams too, threaten to fade into the seas of forgotten time. but the sun sits resolutely in the sky, soaking us in bright colors and stark shadows until we can no longer focus our minds on what is silently but surely slipping away. and soon, as the precious little patches of white dissolve into exuberant swaths of green and yellow, it is as though winter was never here.
...ten years down the road, will i remember this tiny moment in my life? and if i do, what would this memory be like? i wish i knew. never expected life to be easy and straightforward, but part of me really wishes it to be easy and straightforward right now.
the other part, of course, doesn't.
oooh, my paperwhites are blossoming very very awesomely! ... and at the same time infusing the atmosphere of our apartment with a rather strange, vaguely artificial aroma. i actually really like it when i go close the flowers, but from a distance the smell can be quite disconcerting. doesn't help that it's winter and all our windows are shut... ok time to go open windows and freeze to death bye!
snowed in just a week ago (not that bad already)
i actually hate reese's even though i really love peanut butter...
exploding with flowers!
even more exploding!
wish my window mesh thing wasn't there... spoil the picture....
...ten years down the road, will i remember this tiny moment in my life? and if i do, what would this memory be like? i wish i knew. never expected life to be easy and straightforward, but part of me really wishes it to be easy and straightforward right now.
the other part, of course, doesn't.
oooh, my paperwhites are blossoming very very awesomely! ... and at the same time infusing the atmosphere of our apartment with a rather strange, vaguely artificial aroma. i actually really like it when i go close the flowers, but from a distance the smell can be quite disconcerting. doesn't help that it's winter and all our windows are shut... ok time to go open windows and freeze to death bye!
snowed in just a week ago (not that bad already)
i actually hate reese's even though i really love peanut butter...
exploding with flowers!
even more exploding!
wish my window mesh thing wasn't there... spoil the picture....Monday, March 03, 2008
wow i saw gabriella again! last time at praisealive she left with chuck before i could see her, but it looks like our paths have aligned again! joseph told me that she was asking him where i was -- so sweet right? and i'm going to see her on friday again, at the easter egg painting. me and yankai are already steeling ourselves for another big round of catching/assaulting/abuse from her but it's ok cos she's cute :)
haven't been taking many photos these few days. sometimes it seems as though life has taken on a life of it's own and is quickly escaping beyond my control. come back, life! but then again, maybe it's alright...
haven't been taking many photos these few days. sometimes it seems as though life has taken on a life of it's own and is quickly escaping beyond my control. come back, life! but then again, maybe it's alright...
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