I will go

There's nothing I can see
That you didn't mean to be
There's nothing in my possession
That you didn't leave for me

There's nothing I could do
If you didn't see me through
You lift me up you carry me
And the dark dissolves for you

And even when my heart is cold
When there's no one else I know
When there's no path that I could follow
You lead and I will go

And sometimes I forget
To bow my head and pray
And thank you for this life you gave me
The breath of every day

Cos you fight my every battle
You win my every war
You gave me all I could ever want, Lord
And you promised so much more

And even when my heart is cold
When there's no one else I know
When there's no path that I could follow
You lead and I will go

Daddies be good

I just listened to John Mayer's Daughters, and it's so true! I want to teach my children to love, but I guess the only way is to love them first, and show them that it's something they should value. I realize that the only way to get Char to appreciate me is to do the same for her -- something that I haven't always managed to do. Sometimes we can't help but tell ourselves, yah i want to be nice, but not if he/she's treating me that way!

But it IS possible to take the first step. Even if we get hurt the first time, it's still possible to love again. We don't have to wait for the other person to take the first step, or to apologize, or to stop whatever they're doing that pisses us off.

But then again, pride is such a powerful thing sometimes isn't it?

Anyway here are the lyrics to this wonderful song:

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

CNY!

i think i'm starting to like performing! last sunday during our CNY dinner, i went up to stage (ok not technically UP cos there wasn't really a stage) to perform a few songs with our newly formed and probably now defunct band which doesn't yet have a name, and i think it's really getting easier! In fact, I found it a lot more fun playing and singing my own song than other peoples' songs. Just remembering last year during SOS (singaporeans on stage), I was so nervous that I couldn't really put my heart into singing -- it was more of, are my chords right? am i getting faster? etc etc. But this time, with such a steady band, i could just go all out and ktv to my heart's content.

pretty glad that the song was well received... :) (who needs singapore idol right? hahahaha) but it would have been great if charlotte was there and i could dedicate the song to her instead of just telling her afterwards that i dedicated the song to her. (she wasn't really impressed.... sigh...) but anyway, i'm glad i can sing and write and draw and all that, cos sometimes you just feel so much about someone or something that your need to express goes beyond just saying I love you, or complaining to your best pal about a horrible breakup. You need to record it, to revisit it time and again, to exclaim it to everyone around you.

So this is more precious to me than being able to study or do math assignments or cook or play volleyball. sometimes i wish i were born a little later. 5 years ago, it would be inconceivable to even think about going into the music industry, but now it's such a big thing -- entertainment, expression, culture... you can be famous for just TRYING to be famous! of course, not that i'm going to take part in singapore idol. all i need is just one person who loves my songs, and can't wait for me to write more.