i occasionally have little bouts of impulsiveness that make me wonder, in the aftermath, why i don't have more of those.

totally felt like a medic today. i like it! BUT why do i have to go for reservist??

ponytail

this morning, while crossing the road to my office, i saw a girl who had an asymmetrical ponytail. it made me think of you, and i was happi.

don't ask

don't ask me why
i'm sitting here all alone
don't ask me why
i don't pick up the phone
don't ask me why
i don't look so well
don't ask me why

don't ask me why
i'm ten feet off the ground
don't ask me why
i'm dancing like a clown
don't ask me why
you'll never make me tell
don't ask me why
cos you know me too well

don't ask me why
i'm trying so hard
don't ask me if
it's time to give up
don't ask me when
i think it's too late
don't ask me why

and don't tell me that
it's just another day
don't tell me that
it's gonna be ok
don't tell me now
that you'll be on your way
don't tell me now
cos i need you to stay

don't tell me that
i'm in way over my head
don't tell me now
that i should take a rest instead
don't tell me that
i don't have a chance in hell
don't tell me

don't ask me why
i'm standing in the rain
don't ask me if
i still feel any pain
don't ask me why
i don't try to save myself
don't ask me why
cos you know me too well

the price of happiness

it's actually very easy to forget things and be happy. but sometimes i'd much rather bear with the ache, because i've experienced how allowing myself to smile and forget meant allowing a little part of me to die off, each time.

the meaning of death

just talking to my china colleague about death yesterday. his friend recently died in a car accident and my friend recently took his own life so we had that little connection there, in the car, as it sped alone towards beijing international airport.

we rued the fragility of life and the wasted opportunities, but in the end we both realized that no matter how senseless those deaths were, they both sent a little ripple through the lives of families and friends. even if for a short time, we are all a little more careful with our own emotions, a little more grateful for our loved ones, and a little more concerned about the problems our friends are going through.

God, thank you for loving me, and thank you for all the people who love me.

hiatus

now that the reason for my hiatus from blogging is back in sunny ithaca, i ought to be happily blogging away. but then it just seems like there's nothing to blog about! kind of ironic that when all these wonderful things are happening in my life, i'm so caught up in it that i forget to record them down... and now the memories are like little starburst babies in my mind, slowly dissolving away.

though they do leave a wonderful aftertaste :)

taipei!

I'm off to Taipei. We're leaving early tomorrow morning and returning on the 6th. I think I should have taken more days off. Why did I not?! -face palm-

Just had bad tiramisu and mango ice kachang and a breezy drive. YY is peering over my shoulder. She is commenting that "tiramisu" is spelled wrongly because it has a red line underneath. But I realise that it's because Mr Check Spelling puts tiramisu one level higher than I do, because he spells it with a capital T: Tiramisu.

Happi Noo Ear Everybuddy!

"In Maplestory, there is a character called N o o N oo. And it is very hard to kill and comes out during Christmastime." - YY the genius

i just had an epiphany. my mogu dog is actually a mogu hippo. i am very sad.