so i've just returned from studio, having NOT watched fever pitch and NOT watched the interpretor, unlike everyone else. So what right? it's not as if i had a super huge crush on nicole kidman ever since batman errr....1? YAH. NOT AS IF.

realized upon plonking down on my chair that i'm so pessimistic about studio that i'm past caring. well, almost. i get my things done, i go home, and i don't worry a single bit. but then maybe it's cos my head is spinning from lack of sleep and my fingers are still frozen from the torturous bike ride home, during which i had visions of me getting enthusiastically knocked up by a car and not ever making it back. ugh. but yah frozen fingers spinning head blah blah and i hear it's going to snow again! woohoo.

reading yc's blog just now and it totally reminded me of those times when i was still semi recovering from the mess of my last relationship. it's really times like these when you realize how precious love is, how every single drop of it can make your day, bring a smile to your face, or just totally overwhelm and surround you in a floating bubble of bliss. and then when it's taken away, how you can just fall crashing onto the ground, unable to pick yourself up or to salvage the pieces of your heart...

i pray i'll never lose you... i pray that love will never ever be a memory.

kr said something to me today about not wanting to be monogamous. ewww. guess it's just something that marks that thick fat line between asians and americans huh. or maybe it's just me! if you were around, i would probably neglect my friends (like i used to do), and just spend all my time with you no matter how unhealthy everyone makes it out to be!

so anyway, she (kr) is really afraid of the whole exclusivity thing, but wants her guy to be totally devoted to her. haha... gone are the days when it's the guys who fool around and the girls just sit at home and weep. nowadays girls don't even call it fooling around. it's just being FRIENDLY. and the guys... well, if you're jealous you're a wimp. if you're not jealous then you don't care enough. so the perfect guy is the .... wait... like that how to have perfect guy? see? no wonder girls nowadays lament about the lack of good guys, cos they make it impossible for the good guy to exist! banished into the realm of fruitless imagination...

but of course that's american culture, which, despite its endless onslaught, hasn't completely taken over our little island of singapore. there's still girls who stick with their guys through thick and thin, and guys who are just totally devoted to ONE SINGLE PERSON.

but must always leave room for nicole kidman! (apparently toingee also leaves a lot of room for her)