1. i just realized today that when i see the name michael jackson, i no longer think "pop star". all i get is a harrowing image of unnatural pastiness and little babies dangling from balconies. ewww!


2. life is a bummer sometimes. studio is getting worse and worse, its degeneration directly proportional to the amount of work i put in. makes me wonder increasingly why i fooled myself into thinking i had a talent. now i'm slowly starting to convince myself that my talent lies in songwriting, but just wait till i go screw that up too :P


3. heartbreak is when you have to fake gaiety to someone who's sticking knives into you, just cos you love the person, just cos you can't bear to see that person upset.

when you sit on your chair afterwards feeling that dull acidic pain course through your body, until even your fingers feel numb.

when all around you, life goes on. and everything seems to be glowing in a warm amiable shade of pink.

when your room door is locked and you can't open it for fear that someone would see you and ask you what's wrong.

when you then realize that you want nothing more than to have someone see you and ask you what's wrong.



4. sometimes i envy those people who don't have enough sense to think that jumping off a building is the stupidest thing to do.


5. if hearts could shatter, at least you'd hear.