semi-wrote a song a few days ago, and i actually forgot about it!

here's a bit of the lyrics:

i pour my heart to you
not all of it that's true
but i know
that you will hear me still

i cry out when i'm down
when the carriage runs aground
cos i know
i'm never far from you

and so on.... haven't finished it yet, but i just wanna post it in case i forget again. it's about my relationship with Jesus. how i try to be a good Christian, but end up always holding back in my faith and praying only when i'm in trouble. and it's also going to be about how He never fails to pour His love back onto me no matter how disappointing i am.

how often can we say that about ourselves? how often do we take all the injustice/unfairness/anger/spite/etc thrown at us and turn them around into love and patience? i can't honestly i've achieved that, though i profess to be trying.


on a side note, someone chanced upon my site when he/she typed on Yahoo: how turtles mate. sorry buddy for misleading you... ka4 sa la already man. this is not nationalgeographic.com or discovery channel. it's canuf.blogspot.com which has no affinity to mating turtles whatsoever.... ok except in one random post lah. hope you enjoyed it tho, whoever you are. :)


we all wish for people to say nice things to us... to be sweet, sincere, kind... so do I. especially from the people who occupy the biggest spaces in my heart. the larger the jar, the more it shatters right?

friends know not to cross certain lines. you can't go around shouting at your friends, cos what if they don't friend you right? but it's often different for those you love, and whom you know love you as well... that's why we shout at our parents, our siblings, our loved ones, cos we know that they are always going to be there, that they won't just throw in the towel and leave the ring. but why tempt love? why test its resilience? why assume that love can endure all sorts of abuse?

i don't know. all i know is that love is like the human spirit -- it can get run over again and again, but always with the assurance that it would stand up wobbling and say, "was that... the b-best... you could do?"

please don't hit me again.


on another note, it's countdown time!!!! 2 weeks and 3 days before i get to see my darling again... everyone here knows that i can't wait for that day to come, and it's TRUE! despite the horrible prospect of finals and gradnight preparations and stuff.... there's always that faint light at the end of the tunnel that's growing brighter and brighter each day! let's hope that it's the light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel and not the light-of-the-approaching-train. ok that was gross. anyway, i'm already suffering from withdrawal symptoms, like the need to keep posting pictures of you on my blog just so i can get reminded. sorry hor. can't help it! :) thanks for being understanding when i'm feeling down, and for being there for me to turn to when i don't know where else to turn. and for always smiling in photographs. :D

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