i still check her blog almost everyday. it's almost like a reflex, and everytime i'd wonder why i still keep doing it.

but what i do know is that since about a month ago, i've been completely over it. no more hurt, no more bitterness, perhaps only a little nostalgia here and there. a little.

it feels like i'm finally stepping out into the sun and getting myself a good dose of fresh air. lots of it. and once in awhile i feel a little lightheaded but that's absolutely fine!

:)