16 days ago. i remember, do you?

"don't read so much into this but..."

it's funny how we say this to each other more and more these days. i doubt anything's going to (or should) happen really, but i'd be lying if i say i'm not thinking about it. i know that time heals all wounds and perhaps we're only remembering the good stuff, but honestly, before all that mess we fell into, it wasn't too bad was it? (the mess was bad though...life threatening!)

that night (too long ago), when i walked you home, we were talking and talking but all i could think of really was, "what would i give to just hold your hand one more time..." and what would have happened if i did? well, in the end nothing came out of it -- i said bye and took a taxi home, happy that i had even the chance to think that thought.

today was a particularly bad day, but it was tempered by the residual happiness from last night (and of course also tempered by yun who brightens anyone's day) and that more or less dragged me through the doldrums of work until i could finally blog again.

i hope you passed by the river today, cos some little pieces of my heart are still scattered there on the bridge. maybe you'd find them.

of course, don't think too much about it. i won't either. :)