5th September was my first year anniversary with Charlotte. We didn't get to talk much cos of our schedules, which seem to be getting more and more out of sync. But i did get to send a nice bouquet of flowers to her, which i haven't seen much of but which supposedly looks great and also looks like a christmas tree. thank God for florists!
but anyway, i was just thinking about anniversaries, and what they all mean. apparently it is something worth celebrating when you pass an annual mark, be it your birthday or your anniversary or what not. some people of course don't celebrate anniversaries. they think it's silly cos why get so excited about having spent one year with someone? seems almost like a testimony for the transience of relationships, doesn't it? well, i guess it's true for me. yes, i always keep telling myself that when i go into a relationship, i'm committed to it forever. but honestly, through this one year, i've almost given up so many times, and we've had so many fights and cold wars and quarrels that it really seemed like time was slowing down for us just to mock us and make life difficult.
then came this one year mark, and although we didn't really get to celebrate it, it is nevertheless a profound moment for me. no matter what i felt before, i'm just so thankful right now that you have loved me exclusively for one whole year, and likewise, i've been given the chance to devote myself to you for this one year. cos no matter how many times we fight, it's still the best feeling in the world to know that there's this place, this freehold property in your heart that's set aside especially for me, so that i may build a cosy little house and live in it for the rest of my life! now it's just a little shack, but don't worry, one day there's going to be a beautiful mansion there with flowers and water and lots of sunshine, and i'll never ever sell this estate to anyone else!
ok maybe the imagery is a little too cutesy, but the point is that anniversaries are not just markers to tell you where you are. they make you look back and think about what has passed, and then squint ahead and guage what is to come. this anniversary has made me realize that things haven't been that bad, that i'm just such a lucky person to have known you and shared all those moments with you, be they happy, sad, restless, or intimate.
there's going to be many more ok?
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